Self-reflection is something most people don't do a lot of because, let's be honest, nobody wants to introspectively view themselves as having faults. I read an interesting article this week about an attorney who was a former alcoholic until he was diagnosed with prostate cancer in 2004 when he became a complete health nut. He lived an insanely healthy lifestyle for three years until he realized he was completely miserable (from the healthy living; the cancer was treated and in remission), so he decided to start drinking again and enjoy some of the "comfort foods" he had given up for so long. He ended his article stating that while life dictated he should be a vegetarian, a runner, an activist; who he really was was completely different.
Society is very good at tossing up paradigms of who we all should be - pretty, thin, mysterious, funny - the list goes on. But if you look at yourself, all doubt and insecurities of society and self cast aside, are you living your life for you, or for the mold you feel you should fit. I am a product of this line of fallacious thought - I've spent most of my life living for someone else. Finally, at 26, I feel I'm learning to be who I am, but I still have doubts (and maybe schizophrenia!) .
So, true to the title of my blog, this is me...
I am: a daughter; a sister; a friend; an activist for those I love; a harbinger of doubt for myself; a student; arrogant; spoiled; insecure; confident; loved; good at giving love; witty; conflicted; a giver; a foodie; a runner; organized; Type-A; motivated (to an extent); a thinker; a reader; a dreamer; hypersensitive; disenchanted; independent; verbose; reclusive; Lauren ... and so much more. But, beyond that, what I haven't even discovered yet.
Who are you?
